To Turkey or not to Turkey that is the quesiton...

So I went for another "Strollering" with the girls this morning then this afternoon, my legs hurt my hips hurt and i took a dam good nap. The point to this is that its going to take more than just a little strollering to get back into shape...no more cookies or peanut butter and nutela sandwiches...yummy...makes me want to go make one NO! STOP! dam it...
Well I know what i "have" to do the problem is i may have negative will power. I love to eat and the biggest problem is that i love to eat everything that can be bad for me...
Ok now to the measurements that i have been trying to put off...
im fat. by fat im close to 200 pounds of fat. Im legally obese. Im only about 5'4 and im just around the 190 pound mark. FAT. told you.
Next my size is 14/16 depends on how much give it has. I was a size 10 and 165 pounds before getting pregnant with my second daughter...and loosing that weight took a lot of work, by a lot of work it was 1hr per day 5 days a week at the gym SWEATING my ass off.
I am going to promise myself one thing: I will lose 20 pounds by Christmas. 20 POUNDS!
ok lets do it.
(drops the chocolate chip cookie) LETS DO IT!
Peace out. :P

Ok so what the hell...im FAT again...AGAIN what the hell was i thinking?

So its 5 months after the birth of my second and im fat again...no just oh you put on a little weight fat but holy god your ass is amazingly enormous fat.
help...
I hate being fat and then again i love to eat..its this whole love hate relationship..I would pay anything to be 168 again...wow that seems along time ago and a few sizes ago.
I know im fat, and i hate it. What have i done? well i purchased a new jogging stroller! WOOTWOOT...lets see how this helps me in my adventures in losing some of that double trailer. Free ride is over cellulite!
I wonder if skinny people know they are skinny...? hummmm i can tell you that fat people know they are fat...not only do we know were fat we also know that everyone else knows so the next time you feel the urge to "advise" someone who is fat that they should watch what they eat...They know they are fat...they know that eating what they are eating will lead them into fatter land...so dont bother. Just dont.